Like most moms, my daily schedule is full of things I need to do or attend to, as well as be able to spend quality time with my little girl and my husband. I find that it is when I am in the shower or when I am suddenly awakened at 3 a.m. that I hear my thoughts.
Growing up, I could never imagine myself as a mom. In fact, even when I gave birth, I felt that being a mom was not an instinct that all women have. Given all the classes I attended when I was pregnant I didn’t know how to be a mom, maybe because I didn’t know what it felt like to be one. I found myself thinking about my own mom, how perfect she was, how she knew just what to do or say, how she managed to soothe my fears and just kiss the tears away. I always wondered if I could be the same.
|My mom and me|
|Dream Catcher success!|
Over the weekend, we took our little girl for pizza at the Shakey’s in Paseo de Magallanes. She has come to love that place because of the little arcade. Though she is too young to play any of the games, she enjoys the lights and just likes pushing the buttons of the games. She was looking longingly at the dream catcher. I find those machines to be rip offs. I’ve never seen anyone win without spending hundreds of pesos first. In fact, just two weeks before, my daughter’s older cousins had spent a lot all because they wanted to win her a toy, to no avail. I want her to grow up with pleasant experiences so I purchased two tokens (10 pesos per token). I gave this dream catcher a shot and lo and behold, I caught a toy on the second try! Mommy rocked that evening!
This little experience got me thinking about how little I knew about being a mom prior to today (and I am still learning along the way). This might be a very shallow experience, but this goes for everything I have been through to get to where I am… Pregnancy, child birth, breastfeeding, caring for my child, teaching her how to eat or speak or do the right thing, making sure she has everything she needs… I didn’t know anything and I didn’t know how to do many things, and yet here I am writing about everything I’ve learned to help make other lives easier.
I found this board book in a little book store in Singapore. The title is "My Mum Is Fantastic". It's all about everything this child's mom is and can do: she's a brilliant artist, she can balance on a tight rope, tell the most exciting stories, she can do amazing stunts on a bike, throw the best parties in the world... The book paints a picture of a mom who is unique to this child and is simply fantastic in the eyes of the child. I always hope and do my best to be fantastic for my child because I grew up seeing my mom be fantastic at what she was and did for me.
So everyday, when I wake up, I always pray for a little bit of guidance, patience, and gratitude for everything I have learned and everything I am about to learn. I live each day looking forward to the new thing my little girl will teach me. I welcome each morning with the knowledge that I was blest with my little girl and we will have many adventures together.